music can affect my mood

here i go again trying to write a thing on my mind.

terbersit di pikiranku ini soal lagu, kenapa sebuah lagu bisa berpengaruh banyak sama mood kita? oke mungkin gak semua orang suka musik, lagu, istrumen atau apapun itu yang menghasilkan nada. i do love music. it depends on my mood actualy.

dikala sedih dengerin lagu yang mellow bisa bikin hati tersayat, membuat mata terasa panas dan meneteskan air mata, sengaja mencari lagu yang merefleksikan kejadian yang sedang dialami, haha berguling-guling di kasur membasahi bantal dan guling sambil bilang “ini lagu kok gue banget ya?” hahaha dan setelah sadar bisa membuat semua itu tampak bodoh.

ga cuma dikala sedih sih, lagi hangout sama temen-temen dengerin lagu bareng-bareng bisa bikin cekikikan haha hihi sana sini tanpa menghiraukan orang-orang sekitar yang mungkin merasa terganggu dengan kehebohan kita ya namanya juga anak muda sih! ga sadar umur
sampai bisa dibahas keesokan harinya, sindir sana dan sindir sini. that was fun!

trying to write something

yes, i am trying to write something here. sayangnya ga bisa, otakku buntu sudah.

hari ini adalah tahun ke 8 papap. that’s all that i can think and suddenly i can’t write anything about this.

live

Late dinner, mam nugget sama nasi hangat ditambah Chitato sebagai pengganti kerupuk.Alhamdulillah

makan malem dengan badan yang udah lengket, sekembali dari kantor. masuk pagi jam 08.30 kadang pulang ga jelas, bisa sampe malem banget bahkan bisa pulang jam 01.00 pagi. pulang pergi naik ojeg langganan, namanya pak ali. sosok yang sudah tua tapi masih kuat ngojeg dengan kecepatan yang maha dahsyat, yang pasti bisa bikin rambut rapi dipagi hariku ini kusut sesampainya di kantor hihi.

eh what the hell that i’m doing here? nge-blog lagi? hmm  ya ga masalah lah, lagian udah ga ada juga yang baca blog aku kan? bwihihihi.

makan dikamar sambil browsing dengan kecepatan internet yang seadanya.. hmm kalau mamih tau ini aku pasti habis di omelin dia, nenekku itu memang sangat tua. bwahaha ya namanya juga nenek-nenek ya pasti tua kan? almarhumah nenekku itu memberikan banyak pelajaran buatku.

where do people go after death?

dad

cause i really missing my dad right now! where are you right now pap?

there was times when i moved-on and do anything all by myself, but i really missing you right now…
i really need you right now..
i really want you to hug me and tell me that everything will be okay..
i really want to hear you say that i am a strong and tough girl..
i really want to hear you say that i can face this fuckin live!

Dear GOD, will you tell him that i miss him so much, will you tell him that his little girl is not strong enough to face all of Your odds..
dear god.. take good care of him, send him my big hug, and kisses.. tell him that his little girl is proud to have him as her father..

Hold On

Hold On by Michael Buble – Download

Didn’t they always say we were the lucky ones?
I guess that we were once
Babe, we were once

But luck will leave you cause
It is a faithless friend
And in the end when life has got you down
You’ve got someone here that you can wrap your arms around